Are we all just a bunch of cowards living our life at half of our potential, have we become comfortable with the life just barely reaching for the top? Do we only question our self when we see someone else succeed and wonder why we are not there ourselves? Are dreams and goals a thing of the past, to be thought of with a smile and a damning dose of reality, to only reappear once again at a time of deep thought or cathartic breakdown?

I don’t want that to be me, I don’t want it to be anyone; I don’t want to be scared of success. I want to do things, new things and throw myself out there and make myself uncomfortable and question my daily routine, but it’s a challenge. How can I remove myself from what I see and do every day and create a life of opportunity and change, I guess it’s about putting myself out there. About saying what’s really on my mind, instead of trying to please people all the time and never truly showing my opinions on anything, I have to rip off this cover off myself! I rarely share my true feelings on anything, when an absolute truth leaves my lips, it is actually hard for me to speak those words because as those words leave me, they are no longer owned by me, I have let it out into the world and now I am vulnerable.

Part of growing and changing and becoming stronger is being vulnerable, and boy is that ever hard for me! Well, so are so many other things, but as long as I recognize the problem I can try and deal with it! I feel like we can all be so much more then we are today, we are so busy day to day I don’t know if we get a chance to sit and think about what we are capable of and how we can achieve the things we desire. So we need to take chances and put ourselves out there, even if it means possible rejection or defeat. Also, please if you will be doing something exciting, scary or just plain weird let me know, I would love to try it!

Oh and I commend many of my friends who are doing awesome things, Justine taking up photography and making a website, Robyn using all of your talents and selling your crafts online, Andy taking your band to another level and not accepting anything less then what your dream of, Demarie for going to another country and just meeting new people and exploring! All of these things take courage and have the risk needed to take you to a new place in your life!